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Open Letter from A non Malay Bumiputra

2010-11-15T23:26:00.003+08:00

15 November 2010 11:27PM

wah pejam celik dah dekat setahun aku tak post apa2 kat blog ni. this blog can already be considered as dead anyways. saje terasa nak post sumthing because i find this really interesting. enjoy reading

How Come Asking Someone To Go Home Is A Racist Remark?
By Angelia Sinyang

The non-Malays went berserk when they heard how the Principal in Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra, Kulai, Johor insulted their children, by asking the Chinese to go back to China and the Indians of wearing dog-chains. I am not a racist, though I admit that I started to doubt that now. I personally don’t agree with racist remarks from anybody especially coming from a teacher. But with the racist sentiment filling up the air uncontrollably, lately, I understand fully, how this teacher has come to this point. A teacher wouldn’t be uttering such words without a good reason. Something must have triggered the words and I believe, she was provoked into saying it just like what the DAP and MCA is doing to the government, UMNO and the Malays lately.We are already choking, and it looks like nothing could be said or done could purify the air for now. I do believe that the ‘dog-chain’ thing is too much. The Principal should apologize on that and if action is to be taken, then be it. But, I didn’t know that coming from China is something insulting. Asking someone to go home is not at all a racist remark. Especially when the Chinese made it clear how proud they are to be Chinese from China . They look up upon Mao Tze Tung and all the great warriors of China and never share the same proudness towards our Hang Tuah, Tunku Abdul Rahman, Mat Kilau and other Malaysian heroes just because these Malaysian heroes are not of Chinese ethnic. The Chinese despise Malaysia , Malays, our Kings, our language and everything, so why the hell don’t they go back to China ? It is just natural for the Principle to tell their kids to go back to China , where their hearts and souls belong.

Only in Malaysia , we see people go crazy, stomping their feet, insisting that they are Malaysians but at the same time don’t want anything to do with Malaysia .
Only in Malaysia , we see people who insist that they are Malaysians but couldn’t even speak Bahasa Malaysia .
Only in Malaysia , we see people who want to be treated equally as the original settlers but cunningly try to re-write the Malaysian’s history and constitution.
Only in Malaysia , we see people who claim to be Malaysians but cannot even sing the National Anthem!
Only in Malaysia , we see people who fight for equality but insist on going to vernacular schools.No other multi-racial country in the world would tolerate vernacular schools except Malaysia . No other multi-racial country in the world would give equal privilege, rights or acknowledgment on the importance of other culture and language to be taught and nurtured among the youngsters.
Only in Malaysia we see minority own 81% of the economic cake and it is still ain’t enough.
Only Malaysian Chinese would ask for Namewee to be forgiven and look up upon the person and even set up a fan club.And only Malaysia , would forgive someone like Namewee.

The fact that Malaysia has come this far and that the Malaysian Chinese have achieved so much doesn’t seem important anymore. Of course there are few Chinese students who didn’t get scholarships despite being poor, but there are Malay and Bumiputra students with the same fate too. The problem lies in the implementation of the system, not the race. We have to stop looking at things from the race point of view. In order to do that, maybe the Chinese first need to look at it from the non-Chinese point of view: what if you didn’t get promoted even when you have proven to be the best employee just because the Chinese management wants only Chinese to hold top posts? Or you did not get the job even when the interviewer admitted that you are the best candidate, and tell you to your face that they can’t hire you because you are not a Chinese?Only Malaysian Chinese can hire a new, dumb guy to become your boss, rather than promoting you to the post because the new, dumb guy is a Chinese and you’re not. Only Malaysian Chinese who want to hold top posts in government sectors but will never ever open top posts for other races in the private sectors dominated by them.

Only in Malaysian Chinese we see a clear practice of double standard and bias when questioning about the positions and employment opportunities in government sectors as compared to private sectors.
Only in Malaysian Chinese, we see zero tolerance, total greed and unlimited hatred.
Only in Malaysian Chinese we see that greed, intolerance, hatred and double standards are acceptable values. So, how do the Malaysian Chinese interpret equality, actually? How do the Malaysian Chinese prove that they deserve to be treated as Bumiputras or even call themselves Malaysians? Could I get a straight, simple answer to these simple questions?

flashmob

2009-12-31T20:45:00.002+08:00

31 December 2009 8:46PM

Definition of a Flashmob:

Flash Mobs are a large group of people who assemble suddenly in a public place, perform an unusual action for a brief time, then quickly disperse.

this is one of the coolest things i've ever seen put on youtube. don't you love it? owh btw, happy nu year. tahun depan aku update lagi. hehe

salam syawal

2009-10-16T19:18:00.006+08:00

27syawal 1430hijrah 7:22PM

well, since it is still syawal, i would like to wish all my muslim friends a selamat hari raya aidilfitr. but actually what i wanted to show is this ;p

jadi, mari menculik miyabi.

one of the greatest raya ever

2009-09-21T11:11:00.004+08:00

21 September 2009 11:11AM

first and foremost, selamat hari raya eidulfitr to all muslims who came visiting. this has been one of my greatest raya ever. reason being is

ye la, nanti ada la orang kate ref berat sebelah la, lucky la. whatever bitches; a win is a win and that's that. we still have life after ronaldo so face it. enjoy your raya; and this goes to all those bitters and especially scousers! cheers!

hari lelaki keluar

2009-08-29T20:44:00.003+08:00

29 August 2009 8:44PM

went to kuantan with all 4 housemates for the first time yesterday. summary:

Duit Minyak ke Kuantan Dengan Housmet = RM30
Shopping Dengan Housmet = RM XXX
Buke Pose Dengan Housmet = RM100
Karaoke Dengan Housmet = RM 170.90
Sahur Dengan Housmet + Fendy = RM 30
Kegembiraan Bersama Housmet = Priceless

a second reminder to ownself

2009-08-26T01:07:00.002+08:00

26 August 2009 1:07AM

Allah s.w.t. berfirman maksudnya

“Sesungguhnya lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik, perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik, lelaki jahat untuk perempuan jahat manakala perempuan yang jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat pula”

Surah an-Nur, ayat 26

half a century + 1

2009-08-19T23:47:00.005+08:00

19 August 2009 11:48PM

this is my 51st post. my first since forever. felt so lazy nowadays to even type a word, so don't mention about writing a whole entry. there are so many things i wanted to say in the past, but my laziness is as big as my tummy which grows at a speed of 0.01 in/yr (or more!). ape jadi these past few months? dari ronaldo blah dari MU, the passing away of the amazing yasmin ahmad (al-fatihah) to the day when i had to sell back my MU tickets because i have to go offshore. not forgetting i miss the mtv world stage since my mom asked me to go back home, but for a good reason of course.

ah lupakan hal dunia. puasa pun dah dekat. berjaya ke nak pecahkan rekod semayang terawikh last year? tahun lepas buat 6 je kot. ini la contoh manusia akhir zaman. mak sape la nak budak camni buat menantu. haha. budak kat rumah pun dah dapat bonus. aku la nasib kurang baik masuk lambat. takpe tahun ni bukan rezeki aku, tahun depan boleh la upgrade kete pulak. hurm, dunia lagi.

anyway i'm on a 1 week leave. yes, you read that right, 1 week! baik sungguh la bos aku perkenankan cuti ni. masuk je opis next week terus apply cuti raya. cuak kalau budak baru kena stay time raya. biasa la freshie mmg slalu kena ragging. lantak la kat mane pun, same je. tengah cuti ni elok pulak ada konvo kat utp. grad jugak member yang lagging tu. grats! felt old when looking at those kids receiving their scrolls. bajet lah. met mache and my cousin who are both in utp. pening la si along tu nak pikir how to play around with the new petronas policy; you can't marry petronas people/scholar if you are working in petronas. memang ramai yang tak puas hati, but who are we to fight this lost cause. tak boleh cakap banyak. nanti kena gam. hehe

enjoy this short movie from 15malaysia.com. the website contains the last project by yasmin ahmad before she passed away alongside other talented directors in malaysia. macam nak sahut seruan kerajaan la kan. dulu islam hadhari. tuka pm baru jadi 1malaysia. kj naik jadi ape la pulak agaknye. ops!

happy birthday to me!

2009-06-23T19:14:00.004+08:00

23rd June 2009 7:14PM

last year, on this date, i was just finishing school. the feeling was great knowing that i don't have to study or hit the books anymore (or so i thought). 2 years ago, i was recovering from an accident. my legs were barely crushed by a 6-wheeled lorry. and the years before that, each of them brings a different memory and a different meaning to me. thank you to everybody that celebrated those days together with me or for me. i would have not been where i am today if any of that were different.

and so today, 23rd june comes again. honestly i don't feel anything like today is my birthday. but hey, God gave me another year to live, and i am thankful for that. i am blessed with a good job and good people around, and i wouldn't ask for anything else right now. so do pray for me, for my happiness and for good health. and also so that i'll be able to write again next year =)

MCKK: Our Friend Or Foe

2009-06-07T22:25:00.004+08:00

7 June 2009 10:26PM

i found this article very amusing. written by a STAR oldboy, who obviously have grudges with mckk boys. haha. well i for once doesn't have a TKC gf, at least not in the present. past tu mungkin la ade (you know who you are! muahahaha). future? tatau. but read this, very the fun

[originally published in STAR86 Online - extracted from mckknet]

by Atan Mustapha

Do you feel sick watching that familiar striped red tie being worn by a certain group of people on Wednesdays or catching a glimpse of that familiar crest above Renong headquarters while driving along Jalan Syed Putra? I was at a TKC Old Girls dinner a couple of years back accompanying my better half and I actually found myself at a mini MCOBA gathering. The emcee even went on to say, in praise of the TKCians' achievements, "TKC girls are no longer just MCKK wives but are also doctors and lawyers ......". The few STARians who were there sure felt like throwing up (this will be confirmed by Sheikh Yahya, a 60s STARian who was there). MCKK boys have been our favourite enemies in school but are they still are?

But let's be honest, the Malay College in Kuala Kangsar is somewhat of a necessary evil. Just imagine life in STAR without them. Would Min Nyamuk have looked forward to bashing KE VII students rather than MCKK boys at rugger matches? Apart from not having any common struggles with the KE boys apart from winning at rugby, he would probably have gotten seriously pulverised in the process. Sometimes I feel that they are our raison d'etre. Most of our competitive spirit had been centred around them. Try to remember, was it more satisfying beating Sekolah Seri Puteri in the 1984 PPM English Debate Finals and becoming champs for the third consecutive time or beating MCKK twice in a row in 1982 and 1983? In sports, especially soccer, the motivation for winning the Ipoh championships was probably to get a chance to meet MCKK at Perak inter-district championship level, not to bask in the glory of becoming the Ipoh champs. Who cares that we lost in the finals of 1985 inter-district football match as long as we thrashed MCKK three weeks earlier (to the joy of Kuala Kangsar folks).

In the field of girl-getting, these guys also look like they have the upper-hand. For one thing, TKC girls always have this incomprehensible preference for MCKK boys and vice-versa. Well, we are smarter since we do not confine ourselves to this irrational behaviour of fishing from just one pond. There is also empirical evidence to show that girls who dump their MCKK boyfriends upgrade to STAR boyfriends (Rahman and I can give you a more detailed account of this). There were cases of a couple of girls who broke off with their STARian boyfriends and having no chance of progressing further had to upgrade to the only higher ranking species left - a STARian class monitor and a STAR headboy.

Ironically, these guys from MCKK, or "Budak Koleq" as they call themselves, suddenly become pillars of comfort in a sea of strange faces when we ventured out into the real world. Who else could relate to the peculiar sense of inter-batch rivalry and "senior-junior patronage" (please be liberal in interpreting this!) except MCKK boys? With whom else could we exchange war stories of rugger and other matches gone by? Who else would regard 3rd class KTM train journeys as a "liberating experience"? The guys from SDAR and SAS may have been our "blood brothers", but apart from being from all-boys schools with similar senior-junior patronage customs and having no pretentious title of "College" conferred upon our schools, the similarities end there.

I have personally seen many a STAR-MCKK friendship develop from rib-picking to strong bonding. The Alan-Miang, Atan-Caine (pronounced Cha-ain) and Mat Kalut-Gonjeng (formerly Mat Kalut-Mat Puk) alliances that we see blossoming are no more than a reflection of how similar we are. Rozhan and Ma'e, would you rather have other people than Feisal and Amran as housemates when you were in London? This is also where I wish to thank Gagak for his tolerance of me when we were in Mill Hill. Coming from any other background, we would probably have killed each other.

Sometimes we are also thrust into the company of MCKK guys unwittingly. I could only respond with a "Hmmmm....", when I was told by my wife (who was then my girlfriend) that her brother was a budak Koleq (a prominent one too, I soon found out). And as if my sister couldn't marry anybody else, she had to marry one of those guys too: a "non-thoroughbred" which is not too bad, I suppose. But surely, having an MCKK sibling must have been awkward at times. Lul must have been annoyed by the fact that his relatives saw his brother Kamal as the bright star of the family having gone to a "better" school (my hypothesis only). But in the end, STARian intellect prevailed when Lul gained admission into Cambridge University. This would prove to geneticists that environment, not genes maketh the man.

But let's not deny that the MCOBA spirit looms larger than that of STAROBA. It has been rumoured that some people went for a Renong scholarship interview and were discreetly informed that "if you are not from MCKK, you might as well go home". Can we see our old boys network bending over backwards like that? How many times have you been to our Old Boys Weekend? Most MCKK old boys would have no qualms about leaving their newborn children to participate in the revelry of their Old Boys Weekend. I personally have visited MCKK during their Old Boys Weekend -don't ask me why- and was duly impressed with the large turnout (I even had the occasion to have dinner in their dining hall - the food was as lousy as ours. I was asked by one fellow how I manage to pass off as one of them- to which I replied "I just acted like a dickhead"). There is even a chap who is a walking encyclopedia of MCKK facts and figures who abandoned a promising career to work full time for the MCOBA office. This guy, upon mentioning any name under the sun could cite how the person is connected to MCKK e.g. "he is so and so's father who is in Form 2 in MCKK at the moment". Although this is hilarious to me, it sadly reveals our lack of school spirit.

My question is now, do you feel that it was a waste not going to MCKK? I for one, if I have a son, would prefer him to go to STAR even if offered MCKK. And it's not just because that would set a record of sorts having three generations in a row attending STAR. I couldn't really list the benefits of being a STARian but I feel that it would be unfair to my son if I had the STAR experience and he didn't - I think you know what I mean. At the end of the day, the benefits of having attended MCKK boils down to two things (as perceived by most MCKK minds): getting a TKC wife and a supportive MCOBA network. The former I have achieved just by using my natural charms and the latter I have access through my good friend Caine (who practices a somewhat Freemasonic type of MCOBA networking by adorning among other things, a watch with an MCKK crest clock face and driving a Beetle with the number plate MC 5999).

Am I proposing that we end all hostilities and turn pally-wally in all situations? If STAR rugger players start hugging MCKK players at the end of their matches, I would personally recommend to the principal that they be expelled! In fact, a past client of mine deprived himself of a discount from his legal fees by wearing his beloved striped red tie in my office. Maybe all I'm saying is that there may be a good buddy underneath that high-hat shell. If there are any budak Koleq reading this, I've got only one question: when Queen Elizabeth came a-visiting did Her Majesty ever get to use the Royal RM1m toilet?

we will be back

2009-05-31T00:04:00.003+08:00

31 May 2009 12:04AM

chelsea just won the fa cup. good for hiddink then. he did brilliantly i must say

but don't put us out just yet, as i was saying;

we will be back

so see you next year. this was an amazing season despite losing out to barca. as to my united, see you at bukit jalil this coming july!

yuna - dan sebenarnya

2009-05-30T17:11:00.003+08:00

she is one talented girl with a very soothing voice

Oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu lagu di radio seolah olah memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh

dream job?

2009-05-23T22:16:00.005+08:00

23 May 2009 10:18PM

hell no! my dream job is to do nothing while the cash flows in. but at least this one was worth hitting those books back then. more piccas at facebook

after so long,...

2009-05-18T20:29:00.010+08:00

18 May 2009 8:30PM

...i finally have my own car. i wanted to drive in my own car ever since i was in 2nd year, but tak pernahnye nak dapat. good decision by my parents though. hehe. and now i own a car from my own blood, sweat and tears (hiperbola sgt!). as for the plate number, you'll know if you knew what that means. i prefer 23, but the booking price was around rm2k. this one only costs me rm250. so, nak tumpang?

...i managed to actually ate yut loy punye pau. i've been going there every chance i got. smalam pun pergi, tp tutup. the last time i was in kk pun pergi, tapi habis, so lucky me today dapat. tak sengaja pun actually, i was on my way back home after servicing my car when i realized the jelapang tol was right in front of me. and since i missed the exit to ipoh, might as well go back to kk one more time before i go back to kerteh tomorrow

...i reached the highest feat of my fantasy footballing career (hehe). i played fantasy premier league (formerly known as cyki) since i was in f3. this season i managed to be in the top 5 all season long for lowyat's forum league. it's the best league in malaysia after all. one more gameweek to go and we'll see what that brings

...manchester united equalled the record that liverpool held all these years; the 18th premier league title, and we did it with style: 3 years in a row. now beat that kop and chelski. sorry but i forgot the other team's name is but i believe it starts with an 'a', ass maybe. so now we already have 3 trophies to brag about; carling cup, clubs world cup and the premier league title.

only one left, and be sure to watch how we conquer rome after the fall of moscow! watch out messi!
...perak will have an mb. ops, belum lagi! ape la nak jadi dgn negeri aku ni. nasib la duduk tganu, kalau tak mau aku berarak depan mahkamah ke suk ke. hehe. get it over with you politicians. menyusahkan rakyat je

funeral

2009-05-01T14:45:00.002+08:00

yet another masterpiece from yasmin

pukimak nye budak-budak kerteh ni

2009-04-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

poor lost souls

2009-03-22T23:45:00.003+08:00

22 March 2009 11:46PM

fuckk! this has not happeneed in years. tidak ku mampu tanggung kekalahan yang menyakitkan ini. argh. kalah la liverpool malam ni. nasib chelsea sama loser! muahahaha

pastu nak naik offshore pun tak lepas-lepas lagi. bebalik kapal penuh. sia-sia buat passport awal. sabar, sabar.

the fray - you found me

2009-03-17T01:46:00.003+08:00

I found god
On the corner of first and Amistad
Where the west was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I Said where you been, he said ask anything

Where were you?
When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of first and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not, who I want to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning, City breaks
I've been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never send me no letters
You got some kind of nerve, taking all I want

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you where were you?

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
why'd you have to wait
to find me, to find me

ps// fark la kalah dgn kop. byk pulak tu. nasib baik off handphone malam tu. heheee =3

earth hour!

2009-03-13T08:00:00.002+08:00

13 March 2009 8:21AM

switch off your lights for an hour this march 28th, 830 - 930 pm
show your support Malaysia for EARTH HOUR!

american idol

2009-03-08T15:42:00.005+08:00

8th March 2009 3:43PM

eversince i knew that david cook was last season's winner of american idol, i had been looking forward for the new season. i was never a follower but i just love music so much and american idol truly brings out quality stars, not just quantity. so since i moved to kerteh i will always find time after work to watch the preliminaries. and among the top 13, there are a few that i really like, not only because they can sing, but also because their personal background

Anoop Desai

this guy almost didn't made it into the top 13 but he was chosen during the wildcard show. when he wasn't chosen during the top 36, i know he'll be back somehow. this time instead of 12 contestants, it will be 13 because the four judges could not decide between him and matt giraud so they ended up with 13 people. this guy has something different about him but i don't know if he can go far, but i'll be sure to root for anoop dogg. even ellen degeneres loves him

Scott MacIntyre

he's blind, but he has great potential to go further and is quite a remarkable person. he won quite a number of scholarships during his academic years and is an oxford/cambridge bound. he is truly special in his own ways and i do hope despite him being disabled, he will come out successful

Michael Sarver

a roughneck by profession, this guy is really tough tapi quite keras bila menyanyi. who can blame him, buruh kasar kot. but what the heck, support our oil industry dude!

Danny Gokey

i'm targetting him as the 8th season american idol winner solely based on his voice, very soulful and it's in the now, plus he got the looks. the sad part is that his wife pass away a month before he went for the audition. kalau skarang dia nak bini baru, memang tak perlu susah payah, but just hope that he won't lose to all that fame

ps// and i'm off to kerteh back. boring..

2 down, 3 to go

2009-03-08T09:32:00.006+08:00

8th March 2009 9:33AM

last night man utd trashed fulham to a 4-0 victory in the fa cup last 16, which means we will be playing in the semis. so that's another step towards the 5 trophies. it is possible, you know. and ronaldo wasn't even on the squad. i really love it everytime park ji-sung scores. it really shows how much he is capable of doing when other people said he was signed only because of the asian market. anyway let us wait and see what happens. united will be playing inter milan this wednesday (kena bangun! kena bangun!). if we didn't get them this season, there will always be another, but i'm quite optimistic that we will win the premier league and the fa cup. so sit down, relax and enjoy every bit of the game

fifa club world cup champions

carling cup champions

ps// it would be 6 trophies if you include the community shield ;p

and owh congrats to kirin and fiza for their wedding. i'm really sorry i couldn't attend but i at least made the effort to collect money for the giftS. hope you like them. kahwin gak abang long sorang ni. haha

adopt a pet

2009-03-07T00:03:00.004+08:00

7 March 2009 12:04AM

aku ni makin lama, makin malas menulis actually. bukan takde idea, tp mmg plain 'M'. just wanted to share, if you love pets and want to adopt, please bring yourself to visit these 2 wonderful sites:

Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals

and our one and only...

Lowyat.net Adoption Thread

so why wait? adopt a pet now and end your lonely miserable life with these adorable furry little beasts =)

c'est la vie

2009-03-01T00:32:00.008+08:00

1 March 2009 12:35AM

to kop fans; face it, that's life! you'll never gonna get those dirty hands of yours on the trophy. thank you for being so kind by losing to m'borough. we could never asked for more. chelsea almost lost if not for lampard's looping header. and as for arsenal, either with arshavin or not, they are still the same old arsenal; gunners without bullets.

well then united, quituple it is! don't forget to watch the carling cup final tomorrow vs tottenham at 11pm.

tomorrow's sunday, and i've got to bloody work on sundays!

estrella - stay

2009-01-27T10:55:00.004+08:00

new lappie, wohoo!

Sound straight from the twilight
Has me up all night
I can't fall asleep 'cause I keep thinking of you
And I saw a shadow outside my window and it's you.

[Chorus]
All my sorrows flew away
Hush, keep quiet, hear me say
I don't ever want you to go
Please stay
With the moonlight dancing free
And there's no one but you and me
There's no reason to go astray
Please stay.

Making up a story
It's the way you're looking at me
If you think that this is funny, it's just you.

Try and think about it,
If you're heart is closed don't lock it,
Keep your keys back in your pocket,
Think this through.

[Chorus]

Please stay with me
Just stay with me
and I will take you to Foreverland
Just stay

and then i dissapear again

2009-01-18T12:28:00.005+08:00

18 January 2009 12:30PM

well then, i'm off to kuala lumpur for now. will be riding with hayyum from tya's house. ada kenduri doa selamat. she'll be flying to aussie rasanya to further her architecture studies. good luck in your future undertaking tya. azizul ada kat sana kan? so why worry so much?

ade 2 concerts in the near future kat kuala lumpur. one is by rihanna and another is by jason mraz. nak pergi tapi kena cari kaki la. kerteh - kl bukan dekat. 5 jam jugak. ipoh lagi dekat ngan kl. tp rasanya aiman + yaa mesti nak peginya. so boleh la naik keta baru dorang. huhu

anyway wanna wish good luck too, to meet uncle hussain for their juara lagu campaign tonight. they will be singing lagu untukmu, another soundtrack from kami

Tiada bintang
Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicelah
Bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri
Aku tetap begini
Takkan berubah kerna aku tetap aku
Dan lalu rindumu bukanlah aku

(Chorus)
Guna hati, akal dan fikiranmu
Berbeza
Kau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu

Apakah aku
Hanya boneka yang sering engkau mainkan
Yang dikawal oleh jari-jarimu
Ku punya hati dan perasaan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan
Cukup cukuplah oh cukuplah

(Chorus)

Tak faham tak tahan
Sabarku tak tertahan
Melayan sikapmu perawan
Berbeza-berbeza
Kau dan aku berbeza
Kita memang tak serupa
Bebaskan bebaskan
Ku ingin dilepaskan
Kita tidak sehaluan
Cukuplah sudahlah
Sampai di sini saja
Hubungan kita berdua
Hoa... hoa... hoa...

(Chorus)

selepas sebulan

2009-01-18T03:45:00.008+08:00

18 January 2009 3:45AM

shit, malas gila nak type. lepas sebulan tinggal blogging world, nak start tulis pun takde momentum. so short form je lah

smlm balik rumah from kerteh, ada event utk student baru utp oleh young professional club carigali. esok pergi kl sampai rabu ada course kat klcc
kerja masih lagi busy, kepala masih lagi pening sbb buat mechanical+ chemical punye stuff when i actually did civil engineering dulu. tp yang sebenarnye tak reti nak delegate kerja yang byk dalam satu masa
safety passport dah siap so boleh la pergi offshore in the nearest future. makan kat offshore byk, so kalau tak kawal boleh cecah 0.1 tan berat badan aku ni
internet still tak available kat umah kerteh, axion lambat sket nak follow up streamyx punye installation. tp kalau ade tenet pun aku bukan ade laptop sendri lagi, plan nak beli kat lowyat lusa
money spending still taleh kawal, beli ini itu untuk diri sendri dan rumah baru. tp gaji baru masuk sebulan je, relaks la bro
di kesempatan ini aku nak ucapkan semoga kekal bahgia pasangan2 di bawah ini. sorry aku tak dapat datang reception ko raja. i really wish i could. insyaAllah i'll be going to firo's and aai's

selamat pengantin baru raja + siti

selamat pengantin baru firo + fath
pic thanks to firo

selamat tunang baru aizat + angah
pic thanks to fifi

selamat pengantin baru aai + wak

tatau la bila leh update lagi blog ni. dah ada laptop, takde internet. take time la sket kan. starting from scratch kot. kata tak penah kluar perak (almost!)
kepada orang2 di kerteh, bila bbq kita nak jalan ni? defer byk sgt dah ni. orang opi kena take action camni
last but not least, kenapa la ramai sangat awek cun dah jadi bini orang kat kerteh ni? tinggal la sket untuk staff2 baru masuk ni ha. kami pun lonely jugak. hahah

a new life

2008-12-05T17:56:00.003+08:00

5 December 2008 5:56PM

after almost 3 weeks, i'm finally blogging again. i am now in kerteh, terengganu. finished my induction course on wednesday. flew to kuantan the next day and straight away got into the office. i am taking over works for masa field's maintenance. too many informations i received in a day and i don't understand most of them. this thing takes time i guess, so i really hope i do have the time. for 2 weeks i'll be staying in rumbia resort in paka, a 20 minutes drive from the office. tak balik raya haji la aku. but it's ok since hasbi (dulu utp gak, now same office) is around too. in fact, i am blogging from his house. can't stand living alone in rumbia with no transportation whatsoever. usually a driver will pick and drop me off between rumbia and the office.

well kerteh is exactly like what i used to imagine and heard stories of. the nearest cinema is in kuantan, 100km away. in terms of entertainment, there's not much to do here. so i am eagerly waiting for mesra mall to fully opens next year. at least there will be tgv and sports planet. for now, i need to focus on my work perhaps to keep me busy. still no workstation for me at the office until the person that i'm supposed to be replacing leaves next week. so the internet will be hard to get hold of this few weeks.

i really miss my pipe buddies. i'll post the pics when i have them. the induction was really great. 16-days of pure fun although some nights when we have no classes tend to be quite boring. but i went to the cinema 3 times, so imagine the free time we had there although we still have classes on weekends. most of them are based in klcc and dayabumi while one particular girl is in melaka. won't be seeing any of them any day soon but i hope we will still be good friends with each other. after all we are working in the same company. hehe. lawat la aku kat kerteh ni every chance you get. this goes out to everybody reading this.

today is a public holiday in terengganu. have to change my mindset when i have to work on sundays. rasa pelik sikit but over time it will surely get better. so i'm off for now. if there's anything you can reach me via handphone anytime of the day, 7 days a week unless i'm at offshore, tp lambat lagi la kalau nak pergi pun.

so welcome to kerteh, mr. amirul

on hiatus!

2008-11-15T01:36:00.003+08:00

15 November 2008 1:37AM

i will be termporarily away from blogging or any internet related stuff for that matter as i'll be going for my induction in bangi. until i can find an internet source there, this blog will be on hiatus.

take care ppl and enjoy life to the fullest.

abg bonz

tv series

2008-11-13T12:07:00.008+08:00

13 November 2008 12:12PM

before i leave for bangi and later kerteh, i would like to share the tv series that i am currently watching. this is the thing that kept me entertained throughout these 4 months. i would die without them. lol. i will definitely won't be seeing them until my life in kerteh is steady enough for me to buy a new pc/laptop and a broadband.. but that will take months, hurm..

1. SURVIVOR

survivor is my all time favourite show. been watching this since i was still in koleq but the resources were very limited then with the night preps and lights out. but since i entered utp, i've never missed a season, let alone an episode. what made me interested with this show is that you can see how promises turned into dusts, the backstabbing allies, the bitch-talking, you can't get this anywhere else. these people here are so desperate to win usd 1m that they would do just anything and everything. this season they are at gabon or so called earth's last eden.

these 3 people below are my favourites:

Rupert Boneham

he entered survivor 2 times, he didn't win the first time on survivor: pearl islands and he also didn't win it on the second try when he was invited back on survivor: all-stars. but he did won the 1m when he was voted as the fans favourite right after he finished his second season on survivor. he has a good heart and a great personality since he is a mentor for troubled teens. he is also very skillful underwater, being the food provider for the entire tribe.

Johnny Fairplay

he is well known as the greatest villain there ever was on the survivor series. he lied that his grandmother died so he can see his friend as a reward for a challenge. his grandmother was actually alive and healthy back at home. the show's producers had been very surprised when they called home to offer consolation and ended up speaking to the very non-dead grandmother. that is after all "the greatest lie in Survivor history."

Ozzy

anything rupert can do, ozzy can do it better. plus he is way more fit than rupert is. ozzy provided food and was insanely dominating the challenges. like both johnny and rupert, ozzy featured in two survivors, but he only managed to get second place after losing by a vote to yul on survivor: cook island. this dude really played the game like no other, flirting with both amanda and parvati.

2. GREY'S ANATOMY

grey's anatomy is a story that revolves around the life or meredith grey, now a resident doctor in seattle grace hospital with her friends, christina yang, izzie, karev and george. this is more of a love story rather than a medical one. not so fun anymore compared to their early shows. grey's anatomy is already in season 5, so it would be a waste if i stop watching.

3. GOSSIP GIRL

if you were wondering how is the life of the rich and famous, you should definitely see this. it's about teens with lots of money but has few people to share with. old lame stuff but what really gets me into watching this show is this girl below

Serena van der Woodsen

her real name is blake lively. she is one hot, gorgeous chick. her voice is so sexy. i really hope she will still ended up with dan humphrey eventhough they were already broken up. but in real life, they are actually dating.

4. SMALLVILLE

you should be familiar with clark kent, lois lane and lex luthor. well if you never heard of them, you should consider killing yourself. smallville is the story when clark kent or superman was still a teenager, living in a farm with his family in smallville. this is where his destiny truly begins with the support from people like lana lang and chloe sullivan. this is the longest series i follow besides survivor, since it is now in season 8. i used to adore lana lang for her beauty, but now i have serena van der woodsen ;p

5. SUPERNATURAL

this series follows the brothers dean and sam winchester who travel everywhere to kill demons and ghosts. this story is more exciting than ghost whisperer. but don't be influenced too much by this series because it includes things such as god, angels and demons.

6. HOUSE M.D.

i only started to watch house on season 4 which means i already missed 3 seasons of it. i always saw this french chick in utp, adam, waiting each week for a new episode of house. maybe that's what got me started. i'm not bothered too much though because starting season 4, house works with a new set of team, one of them is kumar, from harold and kumar movies. this indian guy really rocks. what i like about house:

he is a doctor, but also a drug addict
he is disabled
he always talk sarcastically
he is a retard

in the last episode, house kissed cuddy, his boss which make things far more interesting. we'll see how that goes

7. LOST

sometimes lost is hard to predict. they kept showing flashbacks and flash-forwards which might make you confused. and the plots keep on twisting until you can't make any sense about anything anymore. but this series has a huge fanbase. the next season will start sometime next year. the producer have no more ideas perhaps. how hard can it be to get off an island? maybe that's impossible when you're on that island.

8. ONE TREE HILL

two brothers, nathan and lucas scott: has a killer as a father, plays basketball, falls in love with women who are also their best friends, broke up, got together again, broken up again and the story goes on and on. but the story line is kinda ok. that is why i watch it maybe

9. PRISON BREAK

meet michael scofield, a structural engineer (hey, just like me!) who tries to brake his brother, lincoln burrows out of prison. so far, he has broken out of 2 prisons and is currently trying to get to scylla, a heavily guarded piece of equipment that contains information to bring down 'the company' that started everything by framing lincoln to a false murder. this story is like a puzzle, full of clues on how to solve problems and obstacles faced by scofield and his team of felons.

10. HEROES

you are one uncool person if you don't watch heroes. what seperates this from any other superhero stories is that in this story, almost everybody has an ability. so you can see so many different types of abilities the entire time. i could say this is somewhat like an x-men movie but without custumes. to be sylar or peter would be great because you could have other people's abilities too (without having to eat their brains). this series will definitely last for quite some time

11. HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER

this is one of the two series that i am addicted with nowadays. it's a story about how ted mosby, in the year 2030 recounts to his son and daughter the events that led to his meeting their mother. the most entertaining character without a doubt goes to barney stinson. he is always thinking about ways on how to get laid with a woman, and getting away after the one night stands. in short, he is a womanizer. he is after all "legen -- wait for it...dary!"

12. THE BIG BANG THEORY

if you want to see how a nerd really looks like, watch this. this is sure gonna make you laugh to tears. it is about 4 nerd guys who has a hot waitress for a neighbour.

leonard - sweet but sarcastic. a genius who wanted to be known as a social person, rather than a nerd. likes penny very much and is the most well-adjusted one of the group.
sheldon - was a child prodigy, has no sense of humour (fails to understand even the simplest sarcastic jokes) but is the funniest.
wolowitz - one pervert jew who tries working his way to get into penny's pants or any women for that matter but never once succeeded.
koothrappali - an indian guy who is unable to speak around women unless he is drunk. he even managed to have a one night stand in an episode while he was drunk.
penny - the beauty behind the brains but dumb, messy and disorganized.

my chemical romance - cancer

2008-11-11T16:40:00.004+08:00

this is my all time favourite song. this song is dedicated to all those lost souls who have forgotten to believe the immensity of love. tell me if you weep while watching this.

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

pre-game vs arsenal

2008-11-08T17:09:00.004+08:00

8 November 2008 5:09PM

haven't been blogging about the red devils for a while. since tonight is a big game against arsenal, i would really hope we can get maximum points out of the game while also crushing their dreams of capturing the title. arsenal will be without a lot of players: van persie was red carded last week for a stupidx1000000000 foul, adebayor is injured for 3 weeks while theo walcott and gallas are doubtful. if would really be an embarrassing moment if we lose this game. a draw is still acceptable since this is arsenal we are talking about, one of the big four of the premier league.

so don't forget to book front row seats at your nearest mamak stall or inside your comfy home tonight at 8:45PM.

glory-glory man united!

watefak

2008-11-05T22:16:00.006+08:00

5 November 2008 10:17PM

hari ni cek sitemeter, mende yg count visitors ke blog ni. ada sorang manusia ni jumpa blog aku melalui this exact keyword yg dia type kat google, "cerita gay mckk." ada la jugak orang usaha nak tau mckk ni skolah gay ke tak ye? terasa sungguh gay apabila my blog can be found through such method. haha.

tapi yang pasti aku taleh beat blog edwin 9600 yang berjaya membolot tempat pertama. tahniah!

mika - grace kelly

2008-11-04T23:00:00.005+08:00

founded this song accidentally. if i'm not mistaken this was sang too by alvin and the chipmunks on their movie soundtrack. love mika's style!

I wanna talk to you.
The last time we talked Mr Smith you reduced me to tears. I promise you it wont happen again.

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly(mmmm)
But all her looks were too sad(uhhh)
So I tried a little Freddie(MMMM)
I've gone identity mad!

CHORUS
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink

Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly(mmmm)
But all her looks were too sad (uhhh)
So I tried a little Freddie(MMMMM)
I've gone identity mad!

CHORUS

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

CHORUS 2x

Ka-ching

vote for change we can believe in

2008-11-02T12:46:00.006+08:00

2 November 2008 12:49PM

in less than 2 days, the people of america will vote for a new president to replace that old, corrupted and dysfunctional george w. bush. i shouldn't give a crap about this because it has nothing to do with me, plus i'm not into politics that much. but who will become the new president will give a major impact to the world. do you want another bush running the world, turning them into their own playground?

obviously i'm rooting for barack obama to win. he will be partnering joe biden for the democrats while their oppostion from the republicans are john mccain and sarah palin. i don't know much about these people here. but what i know is that if barack obama wins, he will be the first black president for the us. there is much sincerity in his words compared to john mccain, a veteran of the vietnam war, who imho, only thinks about how to start a war and not stop them. plus mccain is 72 while obama is only 47. mccain maybe topping obama in terms of experiences, but he already way past his peak. btw, pak lah is 3 years younger than mccain and look how he turned this country upside down.

and have you even saw sarah palin yet? she is one hot alaskan governor. she is not suitable being a vice president if you ask me. she should be in a milf production instead because she will be a real hit. haha. if you have so much free time like me you should watch jimmy kimmel live! everyday on starworld at 7pm and see how jimmy kimmel toyed with sarah palin every chance he gets. fun stuff i tell you.

comes next week i hope we will see a change in the us presidential seat. obama is leading mccain in the polls so it would be a major upset if mccain wins. i see a future with obama. i'm maybe wrong here but his father and grandfather are muslims, so at least he should know something about us.

so yeah, vote for change we can believe in!

good luck barack obama

medical checkup

2008-10-30T22:37:00.003+08:00

30 October 2008 10:40PM

will be going for a medical checkup tomorrow at ipoh specialist. i'm scared shitless. you should know what 4 months of doing nothing can do to your body. plus i'm already as big as a balloon. hope everything will go on smoothly. this will be my 2nd medical checkup in 7 months. i did a pre-employment med check in march, for the supposedly dubai-based al-mansoori which is also an o&g company. i'm glad i didn't go.

to be honest i don't want to be too far away from my family. i'm not that homesick, but maybe because of the way i (and almost all the people i know) was brought up makes us close with our family and being far from them even for a little while can be quite a burden sometimes. anything inside malaysia is still acceptable. but if works take me outside, then i'll go. but aside from the 1 year i spent in penang during matriculation, this will be quite a huge leap for me. i'm leaving perak! yeah, laugh all you want.

finally...

2008-10-27T08:43:00.003+08:00

27 October 2008 8:44AM

finally i got what i have been waiting for all these months: a job! i got them last saturday when i was still sound asleep. orang muda bangun lambat, biasalah. my dad brought the letter to me. i didn't expect it to arrive on a saturday, but i'm glad it did. i got a job as a maintenance engineer with petronas carigali kerteh. will be leaving for permata in bangi this coming 17 nov for 2 weeks of orientation. i don't know the details yet. haven't gone through all the things.

it's like a huge weight have been lifted off my shoulders. only people who went through this kind of situation knows exactly what i am talking about. i'm so relieved. just hope that all my friends who are still waiting will get theirs soon.

.....

2008-10-23T09:50:00.002+08:00

23 October 2008 9:51AM

seriously i got nothing to write. the other day i called petronas's hr again to ask about my employment status. i'm calling them every week now. like my mom said, "penantian penuh penyiksaan." true enough. the person who answered my call said that my offer letter is just waiting to be signed by her boss. i don't know whether to believe her or not cause til today, i still got nothing. kenapa diorang suka bagi harapan palsu.

penipu besar!

2008-10-19T10:16:00.004+08:00

19 October 2008 10:16AM

semalam aku tengok cite melayu paling bodoh dalam hidup aku - tipu kanan tipu kiri. cerita yang takde matlamat, hala tuju dan segala macam lagi cliché yang korang boleh cari dalam kamus dewan yang menggambarkan how a malay movie should be. sebenarnya tak boleh nak beza pun between a malay or an indonesian movie sebab most of the dialogues were in indon. how stupid was the production team for not putting a malay subtitle everytime the actors started to speak indonesian. i don't fucking understand the language. cerita ni kononnya romantik and lawak but was actually stupid to even begin with. aku agak la sebab citer ni bodoh gila was because the director was not even a malay, it was an indian guy actually. you can see how they slipped the bollywood elements throughout the whole movie: dancing + singing + macha yang kaki menari + hero filem tamil muncul last skali nak pikat natasha hudson. nasib la ada hans isaac, his part was ok.

anyway this is not a promo of the movie. i just wanted to warn people to NOT watch this shit. i burnt rm9 for this kind of trash when i can actually see a better movie. baru puji KAMI! the movie the other day, now this happens.

words of wisdom episode 4

2008-10-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

Allah s.w.t. berfirman maksudnya

Surah an-Nur, ayat 26

KAMI!

2008-10-13T03:55:00.011+08:00

13 October 2008 3:56AM

last week i went to see KAMI! the movie with axion. have been looking forward to see this after the tv series ended quite a while back. i mean, i'm not into malay films that much but honestly i didn't regret ever following this series or watching the movie for that matter. instead of opting for senario and all their slapsticks, you better go and watch this. plus the soundtracks are that good, featuring our homegrown indie bands such as meet uncle hussain and laila's lounge, among others. i fell in love with meet uncle hussain's song, lagu untukmu, when i first watched this series. too bad it's now over. hope there are more similar things to come. enjoy this two songs from the movie.

hidup ini memang palat, tapi esok masih ada

Laila's Lounge - Mawar Khayalan

Semua yang jadi tanda tanya
Buat hatiku tak keruan
Dia wajah yang berkeliaran
Aku, kudamba kehadirannya

Oh mawar khayalan
Bawaku terbang tinggi
Jauh rentasi awan
Dari duniaku yang hampa

Seluas laut yang terbentang
Dan buihnya terapung di awangan
Derita, oh dunia yang mencengkam
Cuba untuk aku bertahan

Semua yang jadi tanda tanya
Buat hatiku tak keruan
Oh mawar khyalan
Bawaku terbang tinggi
Jauh rentasi awan
Dari duniaku yang hampa
Kecewa tak bermakna
Semua hanyalah tipu daya
Modenisasi hanya…

Semua yang jadi tanda tanya
Buat hatiku tak keruan
Dia oh wajah yang berkeliaran
Aku, kudamba kehadirannya

Oh mawar khayalan
Bawaku terbang tinggi
Jauh rentasi awan
Dari duniaku yang hampa
Kecewa tak bermakna
Semua hanyalah tipu daya
Modenisasi hanya
Untuk haiwan di rimba
Globalisasi cuma
Jadi tuan si hamba
Ooo monarki untuk apa
Badut-badut istana

Lalalala
Oh mawar khayalan

Meet Uncle Hussain - Pari-Pari Di Bawah Angin

Masa.
memaksa kita
berpisah bagi sementara
tak pernah ku pinta

Ada.
kalanya
kita tak mampu merencana
takdir yang terlaksana

*Chorus
Satu hati dihujung langit
satu itu sepuluh
sejauh lima sakti
cinta yakin kembali
Biar.
biar lah ow pari pari
usah kau bersedih hati
ku percayakan mu
Biar.
biar lah ow pari pari
usah kau bersedih hati
ku akan kembali

Siksa.
terseksa ow batinnya
usah lagi kau titiskan air mata
nanti ku tersiksa jua

Benar ia
benar benar menyiksakan
jika ini satu rintangan
harus kita jadikann..

*Chorus

buncit!

2008-10-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

10 October 2008 11:16PM

it has sure been a while since i wrote anything here. the raya fever is still deep within me i guess. i have no raya photos to show because my camera was not even charged during the hari raya but i did brought it back to kuala though. i was too lazy perhaps. but my cousins were on a photography rampage. they snapped every single thing that they managed to find. maybe it was a bless in disguise about me still not working yet. murah rezeki betul tahun ni. but next year things will be different hopefully. it's my turn to give.

anyway i just got back from playing futsal with some of my dad's colleague. 10 minit main and i'm out. not just out of breath, out of the court terus. the last time i ever played anything was when i'm still in utp, and that was 4 months ago. buat malu je. memang terasa mengah dia and i'm the type of person who plays until there's a sub coming in (walaupun hanya berlari-lari anak dan tengok bola terlepas). i'm going to die young if i don't think of something quick on how to lose my weight. hopefully once i started work, i will be too exhausted to even eat. automatic dieting. lol.

tomorrow will be going to a friend's house untuk berhari raya and to mache's open house. makan lagi... nak kurus jadahnye

Salam Aidilfitrti!

2008-09-30T02:30:00.002+08:00

30 September 2008 2:31AM

bersempena dengan aidilfitri yang bakal menjelma pada esok hari, saya mengambil kesempatan ini menadah tangan memohon kemaafan kepada sesiapa sahaja yang ada saya terkasar bahasa mahupun terlanjur kata. minta dihalalkan makan dan minum saya sepanjang tahun ini dan tahun-tahun sebelumnya.

selamat menyambut hari raya aidilfitri 1429h bersama keluarga tercinta mahupun sahabat taulan.

ps// to those who are waiting for my raya card, they will be arriving at your doorsteps a little late. raya kan sebulan =)

gemilang

2008-09-27T02:37:00.002+08:00

27 September 2008 2:37AM

di pagi yang hening ini saya dengan taksubnya tiba-tiba bersemangat kolej melayu. banyak sangat malayari laman web dan membaca rasanya. oleh itu marilah kita ramai-ramai menyanyikan lagu gemilang

GEMILANG

Sungguh gemilang kolejku
Yang ku puja
Oh kolej melayu
Di merata tempat
Harum semerbak namamu oh kolejku

Kolej pusaka bertuah
Ramai penuntut di dalamnya
Berbudi dan berbahasa
Hingga terkenal di Malaysia

Musuh melanggar ku gempur
Sungguh rela ku gugur kerana
Kau kolej Melayu
Biar putih tulang jangan putih mata
Biar putih tulang jangan putih mata
Biar putih tulang jangan putih mata...

the 9802 website is currently being revamped by ayen. i did contribute in giving a few ideas though. just wait for it to resurface.

memories are forever

2008-09-26T11:59:00.005+08:00

26 September 2008 11:59AM

pagi semalam lepas tgk gamba2 9802 yang biskut upload kat facebook, aku pun tetiba semangat tah kenapa. so aku bukak semua album gamba masa kat koleq dulu, pilih ini itu, aku pun scan semua gamba. it was a messy job since i had to take out the pics from stick-on albums. you know how the pic will fold wildly once it was taken out. but just for fun and out of boredness i did it anyway. managed to scan 41 pictures from f1 til f5. since facebook allowed 60 pics per album, i'll be adding another 19 when another boredness period comes. haha. here are some of the pics. the rest can be found HERE

this is amin al-qaf, my bedmate during f1. pernah kena marah ngan mak aku dulu sbb buli aku. it was funny, seriously. he was quite the bully then

macam kata website batch yang still under construction

we don't remember days, we remember moments

tagged?

2008-09-25T11:43:00.008+08:00

25 September 2008 11:44AM

apparently there is this culture amongst the bloggers of tagging people with words to write or things to do. i've been tagged by anisa to do this thing

Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer, take a picture from the 1st page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation

The age you'll be on your next birthday:
Place you want to travel to:
Your favorite place:
Your favorite food:
Your favorite pet:
Favorite color combination:
Favorite piece of clothing:
Your all time favorite song:
Favorite TV show:
First name of your significant other/crush:
Your search - - did not match any documents.
Which town do you live in:
Your screen name/nickname:
Your first job:
Your dream job:
One bad habit that you have:
Worst fear:
Things you'd like to do before you die:
The 1st thing you'll buy if you get $1,000,000:
Your husband/wife:
censored

supposedly i have to tag some other people with blogs after doing this but i'm not going to. anybody wanna tag themselves?

kacaknya saya!

2008-09-21T01:29:00.003+08:00

21 September 2008 1:29AM

look at me. i became handsome overnight. terasa macam pelakon gossip girls gitu. auww!

words of wisdom episode 3

2008-09-19T20:59:00.001+08:00

Desire leaves us heartbroken.
It wears us out.
Desire can wreck your life.
But as tough as wanting something can be
The people who suffer the most
Are those who don't know what they want.

coup d'état

2008-09-16T21:21:00.005+08:00

16 September 2008 9:22PM

today is malaysia day, the supposedly d-day for dsai and his fellow pr mates to takeover the helm of the country from pak lah and co. i was actually looking forward to this day, not only because i wanted to see is there any truth in dsai's words, but also how will pak lah reacts. but i was utterly dissapointed because nothing f-ing (ramadhan, mind you) happens! good for the country i guess. dsai said he is giving the govn 2 weeks to meet him to discuss matters at hand before the so called coup d'état takes place. excuse maybe. pak lah as usual, "takpa, takpa."

why do i called this a coup d'état since the takeover is not by force? it's because the mps that are willing to jump parties in order for the takeover to materialize have really misuse the trusts given by the public. they don't have any pride in them and are blinded by money, if there is any truth at all. don't want to elaborate any further because malaysian politic sucks, big time!

i've been quite busy now that my grandma was admitted to the hospital. been going between my house and the hospital for the last 4 days. she had an operation and is still under the influence of the drugs from surgery. she can be quite a handful to take care of, meracau tak tentu pasal sebab kesan ubat bius tu. hope she'll recover soon.

i wonder what tomorrow brings...

post-game vs liverpool

2008-09-13T21:54:00.007+08:00

13 September 2008 9:55PM

owh i'm effin mad looking at the final scoreline between united and liverpool. we lost 2-1 to the bloody scousers. it was a bright start at first, with tevez scoring the first goal at 3 minutes after the game had started. what's more, berbatov provided the pass that lead to the goal. and i was so excited sampai nak call axion bakar dia. sape tak teruja kan, it looked so promising.

but it all went downhill from there on. the age might have been catching up with vds. what the hell was he thinking diving for that ball? urgh. the same goes for giggs too i guess. i know liverpool was the better side in the second half but both goals came from united's own mistakes. to add to the misery, vida was handed a red card after a second yellow. for God's sake, we are facing chelsea after this. carrick was out early. maybe playing rooney as right wing was not a smart move by the gaffer. he has to sort things out before next week. plus united are also playing villareal mid-week for champions league. can we cope with the stress? we better do!

bloody scousers!
spoilt my weekend mood

the smashing pumpkins - perfect

2008-09-11T11:40:00.004+08:00

I know we're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel that something has been lost

But please you know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...

Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please, you always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep

Perfect
You know this has to be
We always we're so free
We promised that we'd be
Perfect

bahasa jiwa bangsa

2008-09-10T03:46:00.005+08:00

10 September 2008 3:46PM

while i was waiting for a placement from petronas i've been trying to find maybe a part time job for myself. what better place to look than on jobstreet or jenjobs. it's not like i'm picking out jobs, but if possible i want to work so that i can gain experience or learn new things. i just don't want to work for the sake of money. kalau tak dah lama kerje 7e, etc. browsing through the jobs posted on jobstreet i came to this one ad. what made me so pissed off is this:

Required Language: English, Chinese

what now? is chinese the new global language now? if they really wanted somebody who can speak chinese, why don't they just put "Chinese applicants only" or better "No Malays or Indians". from my pov, they are just trying to show that they are racist in a non-racist way. do you think if an indian or a malay that could speak chinese applied, they will be accepted to work there? bullshit! even if you go to any shopping complexes, you can see ads with signs like "Chinese girl or guy only". and they say we malays are the racist ones when they themselves openly declared that. the gov even changed the subject named bahasa melayu to bahasa malaysia for the sake of harmony and peace. nak malaysia's malaysian la, bangsa malaysia la. how that can be achieved with some people still being so narrow minded and close-hearted?

imho tun was right in saying that why everytime only we malays have to apologize to them when giving racist remarks when they didn't. well i didn't completely agree with what the bukit bendera umno division head said, because malays, chinese, indians, etc. build this country together into what it is now, but if things doesn't change, you won't see this bangsa malaysia turning into reality.

or maybe i'm just piss that i still didn't get a call from hr yet.

words of wisdom episode 2

2008-09-08T14:19:00.001+08:00

8 September 2008 2:20PM

What compels a man to become smitten and enamored, entranced, obsessed, obsessed with a woman, one particular woman? How can a passion for one special person brutally enslave his heart and mind, giving him no rest, no peace? Why does he believe, without reservation, that only this one woman, distant, unobtainable, perhaps even cruel and malicious, holds the promise of fulfillment for him?

The obsessed man has gaps, missing parts in his life. He is unfulfilled, incomplete, unfinished. He is driven to fill the emptiness, the void within him. His frantic pursuit of a woman is an anguished cry of desolation, an expression of the search for purpose and meaning in life that at some level must move all humans.

rain, rain, go away!

2008-09-06T20:52:00.004+08:00

6 September 2008 8:53 PM

i just came back from kl, right before breakfasting. went there last thursday so that my mum can do a follow up check at ijn. she has a heart problem but not that severe and i DO NOT wish for it to be worsened. the doctor gave her a big bag of medicine to go home with, 3 months supply to be precise. after everything was done, my parents went back to ipoh while i stayed at my uncle's house before going to alang's for a sleepover. alang stays with kurik, pitya and farid in wangsa maju, a 5-minute walk from putra station. pretty convenient eh?

throughout the 3 days staying there, it was always raining. i couldn't do much actually. went to klcc and bumped into so many familiar faces stepping out of petronas's hq. when i saw how exhausting people working in kl can be, i started to hope that i won't be placed there. tp tengoklah rezeki camna. kejap nak, kejap tanak, tp dapatnya tak juga. they said that the next intake will be in mid october. so i'll just hope and hope and hope til then.

although it was raining pigs and cows while i was there, i managed to see someone i've been hoping to see since way back. hujan rahmat kata dia. though it was only for a short while, but i was quite happy with it. hope to see you again anytime soon =)

ps/ congrats to mamau for being named the top final-year Malaysian student in South Australia. sebijik muka kau dalam kosmo! mau. tu tak kira berita kat tempat lain lagi.

words of wisdom episode 1

2008-09-02T22:40:00.003+08:00

2 September 2008 10:41PM

just came back from terawikh. the first of many i hope. only did 8 rakaat of the prayer and when it came to witr, i went out of the surau to go back. it was quite unfortunate that i was the only one leaving. mane nak tau most people stayed for witr prayer. malu. tomorrow must do witr willingly, kalau tak sia-sia je nanti pahala tak sampai.

since i don't have much to tell, i will paste my previous writings from my former blog. i'm not sure whether i wrote them myself because it's been quite a while already, but here they are anyway. this is my first entry.

Good things aren't always what they seem.
Too much of anything even love is not always a good thing.
How do you know how much is too much?
Too much, too soon?
Too much information?
Too much fun?
Too much love,
Too much to ask.
And when is it all just too much to bare?

studio pics

2008-08-31T22:48:00.006+08:00

31 August 2008 10:49PM

here are the studio pics taken after the convocation plus a pic of me receiving the scroll from tun. the shop sure made some good money out of the graduates.

i would like to wish all malaysians happy 51st independence day. my dad represented his company for marching every year and today was no exception. he had to march around 7km. the last time i saw him march was 6 years ago. it's not my thing anymore perhaps. to show that i'm not always ignorant, this year's independence logo and slogan is as below

i would also like to wish all muslims near and far selamat berpuasa di bulan ramadhan yang mulia. kalau susah nak sembahyang terawikh pun, puasa la sepenuh penuhnya (applicable to guys only! =p). and to fellow smokers

credit to edwin

pre-game vs zenit

2008-08-30T00:57:00.006+08:00

30 August 2008, 1:15AM

i was taken aback when i read tun dr m's writings on the topic of affirmative action for some reason. i was actually trying to find whether tun wrote anything about the convocation, but i was greatly dissapointed. haha. because of the post, i spent about an hour or so reading about the new economic policy. i never gave too much attention towards things like this. well, i am ignorant after all. i never paid too much attention in history classes, let alone malaysian studies while i was in utp. and this kind of thing is waaaaayyy too complicated for my head to take in, though it's suppose to be of public knowledge. well, i'm learning, i can tell you that. those are good materials for reading. you should understand your country better bersempena dengan hari kemerdekaan malaysia yang ke 51 esok. so enough with the big talk.

i was actually waiting for the game between united vs zenit st. petersburg to determine who'll win the super cup and be crowned the true champions of europe. kick off is scheduled at 2:45AM. ingatkan nak tido dulu tadi, but was glued to the screen reading about nep, meritocracy and yada yada. now my eyes are so heavy. i' m sure i'll miss the game if i go to sleep now. maybe i'll even fall asleep during the game. don't care as long as united win. can always download the full match later.

support piracy! yeah!

my convovation

2008-08-28T21:24:00.008+08:00

28 August 2008, 9:24 PM

so after 4 long university years, i finally graduated from utp. majored in civil engineering with a specialization in petroleum engineering. fancy ha? well, who would've thought, once the school's dumbest person could obtain a degree in his hand, 2nd class upper lagi. more on that later. for now feast your eyes with these few pics that i got

more pics can be seen inside my facebook. still have the studio's pic with my family to be uploaded later. they are still kat kedai gambar yang cekik darah. i've spent more than rm300 for pics alone. tu tak campur with the ones yang my mum nak frame baru lagi. she said so that they match with the ones already hanging at home. but then, it's a once in a lifetime oppurtunity. rugi la kalau tak diabadikan dan ditayangkan kepada umum =p

anyway nak sambung cerita yang atas tadi, during my mckk days, there was once when i got the last place for examination within my batch. and to make it worst, it came during the spm trial examination. i failed all my electives (add math, physics, chem, bio). my parents were called to the school. for some it may seem that all hopes are lost. i don't know how i manage to scrape through the spm but thank God i was accepted into matriculation and then into utp. from then on, it was all hard work. i have the scrolls to prove them. although i was not at the top of the class, but i'm pretty sure that i made my parents proud.

i've told this story many times before, at different places, with different people. never once have i regretted what i did throughout my life, at least not yet. bila nak fikir balik, i almost exited mckk during f1, but i'm happy that i didn't. thanks alang for being my 4 years roomate kat utp. bila orang lain tukar pasangan, kite tak. biasa lah, budak-budak skolah mc gay gay.

rest in peace

sekolah kebangsaan sultan idris II (1992 -1997)
kolej melayu kuala kangsar (1998 - 2002)
kolej matrikulasi pulau pinang (2003 - 2004)
universiti teknologi petronas (2004 - 2008)

we have moved!

2008-08-27T17:25:00.008+08:00

27 August 2008, 5:25 PM

i have moved from my friendster blog to blogger.com due to uncontrollable anger. thanks to anisa who suggested me to move here. at first i thought only to use the template given with this pic below as the top banner

but after a while i decided to use the current template. didn't know much about html but i've tweaked things here and there. if you notice there's something that can be pulled at the top banner. most of the things are in there (infos, links, chatbox, etc.). if anybody want to leave comments, click the number besides the title of each post. still can't figure out some things, but oh well. a little bit complicated at first, but i'm sure you'll get the hang of it. link me if you want, but please notify so i can link you back

anyways, WELCOME!